Wheat or Weed?
In your mind you may be thinking that things are at there worst. And, you may feel as if you are all alone in the way you see things. But, remember that God has seen it all and knows what you are going through inward and outwards. Your frustration is because you feel like you need to change things. Not only is that not possible, it is also like a ball and chain on your Faithful walk. God has given you the freedom to live by your choices. The closer you get to Him the better your choices. Even when you don't feel like He is there He is.
Remember His words and He comforts all of His.
Let both grow together until the harvest. At that time I will tell the harvesters: First collect the weeds and tie them in bundles to be burned; then gather the wheat and bring it into my barn.'"
For those who have ears...